This week is kinda slack for me i guess. I only have like one day of work coza 非常 Superband commitments. Abby's been gone for 2 days, and well ive been trying my best to keep myself busy and occupied while he's missing in action. Haha. Somehow, i really really want this relationship to work.. I wanna bring him home, introduce him to my family, I know they'd love him. Even though he's a malay and he's muslim, it really doesnt matter to me anymore. I used to be so afraid about bringing my boyfriends home coz i know my parents would make a big fuss about who i date. Now its like, i really dont care. Its my life, its my decision and its my future. When it comes to love, no one decides but myself.

Well, maybe im still a little afraid, coz i want things to work out so badly. I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore and i wanna stop all the shit that i used to do. I trust abby, and i hope he trusts me. I hope we share the same ideas on where we want this relationship to go and i hope we can make it go far. When we spend our time together, the best part is never the make outs, or the hang outs.. It is when we lie next to each other, and just start talking and sharing things. You know, it can go on forever, and i will never complain coz its the only thing that connects me to him, and its the only thing that makes me understand him better.

Anyways, my birthday's coming in like 5 days!!! I used to complain to myself how slow i seem to be growing up. I keep asking myself when will i ever turn 21 so i dont hafta keep listening to my parents, and id finally get to decide for myself. Now its like wow, im finally 21! It's really time to stop playing around and think about my future. Phew!

I wanna start writing songs again. I wanna start singing again. I wanna start expressing myself again.

Oh well, 5 more days till i can really smile again. Abby baby, thanks fer loving me for me.. :)

This week is kinda slack for me i guess. I only have like one day of work coza 非常 Superband commitments. Abby's been gone for 2 days, and well ive been trying my best to keep myself busy and occupied while he's missing in action. Haha. Somehow, i really really want this relationship to work.. I wanna bring him home, introduce him to my family, I know they'd love him. Even though he's a malay and he's muslim, it really doesnt matter to me anymore. I used to be so afraid about bringing my boyfriends home coz i know my parents would make a big fuss about who i date. Now its like, i really dont care. Its my life, its my decision and its my future. When it comes to love, no one decides but myself.

Well, maybe im still a little afraid, coz i want things to work out so badly. I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore and i wanna stop all the shit that i used to do. I trust abby, and i hope he trusts me. I hope we share the same ideas on where we want this relationship to go and i hope we can make it go far. When we spend our time together, the best part is never the make outs, or the hang outs.. It is when we lie next to each other, and just start talking and sharing things. You know, it can go on forever, and i will never complain coz its the only thing that connects me to him, and its the only thing that makes me understand him better.

Anyways, my birthday's coming in like 5 days!!! I used to complain to myself how slow i seem to be growing up. I keep asking myself when will i ever turn 21 so i dont hafta keep listening to my parents, and id finally get to decide for myself. Now its like wow, im finally 21! It's really time to stop playing around and think about my future. Phew!

I wanna start writing songs again. I wanna start singing again. I wanna start expressing myself again.

Oh well, 5 more days till i can really smile again. Abby baby, thanks fer loving me for me.. :)